New Beginnings

Some of you may have hard the wonderful news already, but just in case you have not....I got a preschool teaching job this week!!  And I start Monday!! Woo-Hoo!!! I will be teaching at Holy Angels Preschool which is part of St. Isidore's Catholic School in Yuba City.  I know the lead teacher/director of the center and one of her aides that is also just starting.  I met a few of the other gals and they all seem very nice, down to earth, and laid back. 

I will be in charge of the Busy Bee class of 3 year-olds, which currently has 4 students enrolled in that class. I can have up to 8 students at a time without an aide, which has been the case for quite a while.  My class gets to mingle with the larger 4 year old class for recess, lunch time, and nap time.  The preschool is open 7 am-6 pm, but my hours will be 7:45 am - 2 pm (unless i am needed as a sub or something like that).

Today I volunteered during class time to meet the teacher I am replacing, and 3/4 of my students were there. I got a feel of what daily routine is like for them, found where everything is, and just got comfortable with my surroundings. 

I got a list of themes for the week and what letters/numbers are of the week from the 4 year-old class teacher that she is using, so I can piggy-back off her if I want...I may and I may not, we will see how things go.  But I get to do all my own lesson plans and schedule of the day.  Since they only have class time for  2 1/2 hours (half hours is recess), I won't have to make extensive plans.  I came home with 5 CD's with music on them and 3 large curriculum books to look over. I know I will be very busy this weekend! LOL!

Thanks so much to Julia who told me about tihs position and to Mrs. A for trusting me to work for her. I promise I won't let you down. ;)

My Affirmation

A couple weeks back we were challenged by Our lovely Angel Leader to write an Affirmation.  This is something that we should have with us to read when we are feeling down or need a Pink-Pick-Me-Up. Also, we should be reciting it out loud to ourselves at least once a day, preferably in the morning to get us going.

I am posting it on my bathroom mirror at my house and on my mirror that I use to get ready at Chevy Boy's house.  It is still a work in progress, but our life is a work in progress, is it not? So, just like life changes, my affirmation will be tweaked after goals are reached. ;)

Without further ado, here it is!

I am a Confident, Vivacious, Beautiful woman.
I speak from my Heart, and stand up for my Beliefs.
I stay positive, no matter my surroundings and see the good of every change in life.
I take pride in how I represent myself as I look forward to meeting professional women like me.
I manage my time wisely, as it being precious to each of us.
I teach women how to accent their beauty and find their specialty.
I assist others in reaching their dreams as I make my own dreams come true.
I am Bold for God, following my path in life that he has set for me.
I am a natural Leader.  I handle confrontation with ease.
I am excellent at Money Management and spend frugally on necessities.

Workin' hard For the $$$

I have to apologize for not posting in a while.  But its because I have been busy!!! ;)  I just barely made Star Consultant by the skin of my teeth!...Is that how that saying goes? my mom says it. lol! I have had to reinvest almost everything from my sales with minimal profit, and ask for a little help to make it happen, but it did happen!! Now I really need to kick it up and make some money to pay upcoming bills. Now, I just need to add 5 more team members (w/a total of 10), get my team motivated, and I can sart my DIQ process! For those of you out of the MK world, DIQ is Director In Qualification, a 4 month period where I trach my progess and my team's process as i continue to add team members. If I make it to the end of the 4 months, reaching goals set by the company, they grant me the ruling of Princes Director!

And I am super excited that I have a wonderful new team member, LT! We have known people in each other's lives in round about ways since high school, but just connected recently.  Like me, LT needs MK in her life to make extra money to support her family. It will be very exciting to grow along with her in this business and see her transformation from mommy and wife to mommy, wife, and MK Consultant.  I know she will be great at this business!

I get pampered tomorrow at a special Star Consultant Day in Chico.  I am happy to say that I do have a team member who made Star as well, but she will be doing a booth tomorrow instead of spending the day with me.  How ironic, right?  She is doing fabulous as well, just need to get her back in the swing of things in our unit. I haven't seen her in a few weeks or her sis, and miss them both at our weekly success meetings.  I definately need to check in with them this weekend.

On Tuesday we are doing Glamour/Boudoir mini photo shoots!  I will be doing a Glamour phot myself, so I have a gorgeous pic I can share with you all, and put on my website for customers.  But it will deffinately be fun to help out with makeup for all of our non-consultant models.  Like my mom!  My gorgeous mother is doing a photo! A gift from me for all the support in my business.  She is so beautiful already that she doesn't need much.  But we will have fun getting her all glammed up for the shoot. Not sure what kind of photo she will be doing...she may be getting a little risque...hehe!!  All in all, we will have a blast on tuesday!  Looking forward to more parties, more team members, and a lot more fun!!

Love Sweet Love

After that last post, I realized I need to do a follow up post about how content I am now.  I am happy with my love life now, and I know I would have never been completely happy with how things were 4 years ago.  I know I deserve better than what that guy could have ever given me.  And I now have what I deserve.  I am spoiled, getting gifts and such too often from Chevy Boy. Now we all know what I really want is something sparkly that fits perfectly on my left ring finger, but if he is not ready for that, then I will wait patiently.  But until that happens, I will gladly take all the unconditional love for who I am on the inside and out.  I will take all the spoiling that recently includes practically half of my Dallas trip paid for, fake diamonds, gas money, a 49er jersey to where to upcoming games (that are already paid for).  We are even looking for a desk for the Boy's house so when I am there I can do my work in my own space that can be decorated in pink and sparkles.  He likes my cooking and eats without complaint (even though sometimes I could ease up on the garlic or other seasonings).  He lets me fill up his netflix account with girly rom-com's.  I can be my silly self and feel completely comfortable in my sweats, hair up and little makeup on around Chevy Boy.  He puts other first, and appreciates family time. I know he loves me for me, and appreciates me for who I truly am.  We do not take each other for granted, and I cherish every day that we get to spend with each other.  He is everything I have dreamed about, but nothing like I had imagined.
Thank you, Chevy Boy, for showing me what real true love is like. *I Love You!*

Bittersweet Revenge

It happened again last night. Jackass crept into one of my dreams.  It was a strange one, but aren't they all?  This time, I was "faking" being in love with him to catch him in the act.  Chevy Boy was around, and I was in love with him, but I couldn't let him know what was going on.  Jackass was getting ready to go out with the guys and I was not tagging along (just like old times).  Except this time, I knew his plan.  Jules and I were like little spies, planning on following him to see if he did the awful deed.  If we could catch him, then we would pop up and call him on all of his BS.  He would be humiliated....just like I felt when I found I had been decieved by him.

It has been 4 years since we ended things.  4 years since I found out that I was being played by a man that I thought loved me.  And since, I have found a wonderful man that really loves me for who I am, and treats me like I deserve to be treated.  But, for some reason, I just can't let this go.  WHY?!?!  Is this normal?  I just want to forget about it, and as soon as I stop thinking about it, something like this happens.  Every few months I have another dream about him, and it is usually similar to this one.  We are together, but not together, I try to hurt him, like he did me.  And I usually wake up before getting my sweet revenge.

I can remember it like it was yesterday.  Thank God for lil K being there by my side, keeping me strong.  When I found out, I met him at his house, he admitted to it when I told him I knew (at least the one time that i knew of), I emptied my drawer in his bedroom and left.  I know it would have never lasted, and that how things ended were the best and worst at the same time; I would have never been the one to call it quits. I never gave him the satisfaction of knowing how I felt, how wounded I was. I guess I wanted him to wonder about how much or how little I hurt.  Was I over him in a split second, moving on by the next weekend? I pretended I was.  I think never giving him the satisfaction of knowing that, has not given me the closure that I wanted deep down inside. I can just hope and pray that he alredy has or will someday get what he deserves.  What goes around

When I Grow Up

Remember when you were young, and your parents asked what you wanted to be when you grew up? You usually said something silly and untainable? I wanted to be a singer, like Reba McEntire.  My dad would tell us that kind of thing hardly ever happened.  I would need a job that could support a famly, I should never depend on a man to support me, and I should be realistic in my goals.  It's nice to have a realist in the family, eh?  I couldn't agree more on that part about not depending on a man because you just never know.

Then and now, when I think about a future family with a husband and children, I think about being a cute homemaker. I think about being home to cook meals for my family, being able to have children and be home with them, being able to take care of the house while my husband is working. And yes, I also would like a white picket fence, a couple cats and dogs, 2.5 children, and a pretty SUV to drive around town.  Sounds silly, right? Like that can happen with me staying at home,  and not have to live paycheck to paycheck.

Well, I am taking everything my father said into context, and my dreams about a family, and I want to make it all work with my MK career.  Funny, how I can do this while not working more than 20-30 hours a week at most, if I really put my mind to it.  It's not easy, that's for sure.  I just can't sit at a desk, waiting for the phone to ring. But I am trying, and putting forth all my effort.

Like I had mentioned in my previous post, I am having to prove to some that I am making this MK thing work as a career, and Chevy Boy is one of those people.  We want to get married and have children, but not anytime soon, according to him.  He wants us to be "ready" and prepared for everything (and he thinks I am the planner...).  I see his point, and understand. He also wants to wait for me to finish school before we make any life changing decisions.  My thought is that just because I graduate with a degree does not mean that I will have a job waiting for me, and at that, a well paying one!  Which is another reason I am shooting for directorship within the next 6 months.  I want to prove to him we are ready to take that next step, meaning I am ready financially.  I want to contribute to a household, and not have him have to pay for everything.  I would prefer sooner than later, and not just because of a big wedding (this may lead to another post). He believes in me, and supports my career, and is supportive of when  I have to work.  In fact, I mark all my appointments on his calendar so he knows when I can't spend time with him and when to plan stuff.  He is impressed with all this pink on his calendar. ;-)  I think we all will believe it when the big IT happens.

Taking a Semester Off

So I am taking off a semester of school this semester.  Some get it, some don't.  But that's okay because it is my decision about my life.  I came back from Seminar in Dallas with the mindset to not borrow any more money from my parents.  I have come to depend on them when my bank account gets low, and that's not fair to them.  I need to take responsibility for myself and my actions.  And it is starting now.  This is also starting with school. When we as a team (my wonderful parents and I) decided that I should go back to school 3 years ago, times were good and they could afford to pay for it.  Now, times are rough for everyone, and I don't want my school to be a burden for my parents. I can get financial aid now due to my age (I couldn't before because I lived at home, and according to the state my parents made too much).  But I missed the deadline to apply for financial aid for this semester.  So, money is half of the reason why I am not going to school this semester; i dont want my parents to have to pay for it, I can't afford it right now, and no financial aid at the moment.

I also had a bit of a revelation at seminar.  I am noticing an increase of women that are former teachers and current directors in this wonderful business that I am a part of.  As some of you may know, I have been studying child development the last few semesters and working toward teaching.  I love children and being around them, helping them learn, and basically everything about them (mainly from birth through tween age).  But, as we all know, it is not looking great in the world today for teachers.  I have some MK sisters that are also teachers and it's scary to hear about pink slips, budget cuts, payroll cuts.  I don't want to put myself through that if I don't have to.  Also, why rack up debt of student loans for a degree that is going to sit on a shelf and not get used?

I will tell you a little bit about my MK director: former teacher, softball coach, and volleyball coach. After becoming a director, building her team, and consistently working her business, she now makes more money working around 20 hours a week than she ever would teaching and coaching, which was at least 50-60 hours a week. And she has family time, can provide for her children without having to choose between work and her family.

I guess I am getting at that I can make this business work. I am making this business work, and I will continue to work my business to better benefit me and my family.  And I am not so sure about teaching. It is nice to know that I will have that as an option, but I am not sure if I will need it at the rate I am going! :)  But, for the past year, I have been saying that I am going to be a director and haven't done it yet. So I can see why some would be skeptical about me working and if I will stick with it.  Which is why I am here to prove to them that I am doing it! I am really working!! And it feels damn good!!!