Baby Steps

I apologize for the last two posts being so depressing. And I'm sorry if i left some of you hanging wondering if I made it out of the house or not a few weeks ago. I did make it to Roseville. I had fun! (Who wouldn't eating chocolate?) And I did feel a little better about it.

I have realized the center of my problem is money, as sad as that sounds.  I am not happy with my paycheck and feel like I am worth more. Lack of money has brought down due to having a hard time paying bills, not being able to afford things, and living paycheck to paycheck is depressing.  Yes, I do have my wonderful  personal sales business with MK, but its still not consistent money I can count on. Only I can fix this issue and I am now working on it. I am looking at going back to school and I am searching the job market.  Anything full time with benefits like health insurance would be fabulous!!! I realize times are hard and jobs are scarce so I am letting certain people know I am looking for a new job/career path.  But I cant let my boss know.  I think it would hurt her feelings and I don't want to make a big deal about it.  Its not her fault we will never get a pay increase (the diocese of Sacramento controls our pay just like a school board) and that my hours have been cut (lower numbers this year means not as much money). I pray when the time comes she will be understanding and won't take it personal.

Now that I just layed out I am having financial issues, I must tell you I joined a gym tonight! I wasn't going to sign up tonight, I just wanted my free week.  But dam that step class felt great!  If I am paying for it, I will definitely use it! Its less than 10 minutes from my house and right in between work and home. The manager was making deals too that were "1 day only" and I managed to get my enrollment fee waived by giving out 5 names and numbers of peops I thought would be interested in joining; I have no shame. So if they call you, please answer your phone! LOL!

Where there's a will, there's a way.  I am working on an actual budget plan so I know what bills have to be paid, what my monthly spending goes to and then what money I have left for odds and ends.

I am making myself wake up in the morning and go to work.  I will make myself go  the gym a minimum of 3 days a week (with a goal of 5 days a week). I will make myself stop spending money I do not have. I will take time to make myself look pretty (look pretty, feel pretty, be pretty).  I will take action to change my current employment status.

I am taking it day by day and some days are great, some are good and some I'd rather not talk about. But I know only I can get myself out of this emotional mess I am in and I can do it with support of wonderful friends and family like you all that cheer me up and cheer me on.